I keep taking these wonderful tiny steps forward, but feel like I also keep getting stuck in limbo after each step. Waiting on the big break to open up in front of me. And each tiny step forward…is excruciatingly hard work.
Every bump in the road takes so much fucking work to get past…I sometimes wonder where I am going to get the energy to surmount the next one. And then…a tiny upswing and wouldn’t you know….I get proactive all over again. Glutton that I am for tiny happinesses.